I don't have the ability to analyze the better parts -
I speak for the unhappy moments, the ones where your heart becomes a fist & it's punching you from the inside out. The ones when you settle (because it'll just go on forever), but your body & mind are still enraged.
I'm an expert at feeling like this -
& "this" is a myriad of emotions,
about dozens of situations and people.
being here, with you means:
throwing myself out of my comfort zone, and into a slow-burning fire.
& saying that you're right (often), when you're wrong as hell.
getting my feet wet & walking barefoot on the ice.
& wanting to be romantic but hiding it behind cold glances because i feel that what you deserve.
missing out on potential fun because i am not equipped & letting you go into situations that will eventually evolve into one of "those" fights.
(everything turns into a fight)
it means getting along (less than), 1/2 of the time
it means trying to figure out who the fuck i am in all of this!
& realizing that there is no finding, only embracing, learning, growing...loving.
it's knowing that you have someone who loves you:
when you say horrible things that you don't really mean.
when you're bitchy, bloated & unbearable.
when you look & feel like crap.
i'm attempting to live through the bitter moments & live in the lovelier ones.
i can't process all of the cliche quotes about living in the moment
& making the most of each day as if it's your last.
they, like most things are so much easier said than done.
